Thursday, October 15, 2009

A Random Thought about my Weight...


... yes, I have random thoughts.. quite often, actually...we have been working on our backyard renovation for the past 2 months or so... and I have been working out and working on my weight since the beginning of the year.  Why, you might ask... did I have a random thought that combined these two things?  For anyone that has been overweight, you know that not only do you feel down on yourself due to your appearance, but you also can't do the things you used to be able to do... I USED to run marathons and play with the kids and Jeff told me (repeatedly) that he had never met a girl that could lift furniture and do heavy yardwork like I could... until I put on all this weight.  I actually started saying that I didn't want to go on a hike or a family bike ride because I knew I couldn't do it... and that is NOT acceptable to me!!!

... which leads me to my thought.  In the past 2 months, I have spent hours digging holes and trenches, helped move trees that weighed several hundreds of pounds and anything else that needed to happen... before January... I wouldn't have been able to do any of this... much less train for and finish my first metric century (65 mile bike ride that I finished in August).  I have been in the backyard using this "digging bar" or as I like to call it "digging torture..." for the past 2 days, helping Jeff dig these trenches before the rebar goes in for our patio in the morning.  As I was out there, DRIPPING sweat and grunting (to the beat of my favorite music... "Look of Love" by ABC, at the moment), my sleeves rolled all the way up (and my arms NOT swinging to the music) I realized that although I have only lost 20 pounds so far, that I have gained SO MUCH MORE in quality of life... I look stronger... I feel stronger... and I am DAMN proud of myself!!!  This digging torture device is 45 pounds ALL BY ITSELF... I would never have been able to lift it, much less drive it into the ground over and over again!!!  Go out and do something that will make you say, "Wooo Hooo, I am PROUD of myself!"  (It feels GREAT!)

4 comments:

laterg8r said...

so glad you can do the things you want to now :D WTG

Brenda said...

What's this "only" 20 lbs? That's incredible! You are an inspiration for me

Heidi E. said...

You are amazing.. I so need to get back into the swing of things.. Ever since I got ill and can't lift things I have fallen of the band wagon and gained 10 of my 46lbs back.. You inspired me to get back on track.. I need to stop punishing myself and losing weight is only going to help me pain that much more.. can't wait to see you and be proud of your self.. every pound counts and Im sure the inches are dropping too :)

Eileen said...

I'm so jealous. Living in the desert for 2 years did absolutely nothing for me. I'm fat AND flabby. Joined a gym but it was so darn hard I couldn't keep up...age is gettin' to me. Way to go, Trace!